New Year's Resolutions + Rationales

I won't lie: I got this idea wholesale from Sean. But then he didn't invent it. So pah! Let's go!

1. Write More
I know I know I know it is a cliche and a half but once upon a time I loved writing and did it a lot more. Finding it harder and harder nowadays and my creativity in general is drying up; lack of stimulation. Wish there was some kind of writing group or something @ Silverdale but alas no. Just have to do this on my own. New Moleskine should help with this, because although I always get a ton and a half of notebooks I've actually used this one (albeit for revision notes) and I love it, I really do.

2. Find a Future
ATM I hardly have any dea what I'm doing with my life. A-Levels yes but then afterwards? University almost certainly, I'll probably try (and fail) to get into Oxbridge (one of the two); but then I don't even know why I'd be doing that. I'm torn in many ways by my kind of academic, thirsting for knowledge side and my more eccentric, "social" side, who wants to explore the world on emotional not intellectual terms. So I think I want to consolidate the wide open space ahead of em a bit more, or at least map it out.

3. Socialize Out of School More
This is I suppose mildly related; I feel intensely lonely at home, sometimes to a fault; while I do do stuff out of school: Exalted, Woodcraft; I feel as if almost my entire life is based at school and therefore begins at 9AM and ends at 3:20PM. Weekends are... ugh. I am an incredibly, incredibly social person; I hate to be alone; I love talking with people about stuff, having a dialog; one reason why I enjoy debating is because it gives this opportunity to engage with others, and about something which less trivial; not that I don't enjoy the trivial things. I've talked before about feeling unconnected with people and I suppose that feelings is the place from which this resolution has come.

4. Re-Improve Manners
I feel like a very rude person sometimes; apparently I eat improperly, I feel like I interrupt people all the time, and am generally thoughtless. I used too be less so, and I think this is something which I would like to re-aquire, this skill of politeness; it is an absoloutely important one. I get veyr fustrated with myself, again I suppose I care too much about what others think but I just think that making a good impression on people and being seen as a polite person makes them feel respected and allows them to treat you with more respect. hence this resoloution.

5. Learn how to Deal with Unforeseen Circumstances
I have GOT to get better at this; I cannot adapt well to a new situation at all and I can get sometimes quite upset when things change suddenly. I have to learn to adapt to current situations rather than trying to impose old ideas on a changed one. Greater fluidity in my attitudes will help me immensely not only in schoolwork but in life in general; especially in the past year I have learnt how events which are not part of the plan can come along; you either change of your own volition or are forced to; I need to learn to choose the former.

6. See a Picture Right in Size
This one might need some explaining; what it means is that I need to stop getting obsessed with minuatae and small details, and sometimes look at the big picture and see how some stuff doesn't really matter that much. But equally I must be careful not to have Total Perspective and see the world for what it is; see the massive universe and feel totally insignificant; in other words I should learn to have just the right amount of perspective and see the world on the wider human level. Too often I get upset over the small stuff or get depressed because of how large the world truly is.

7. Gain Weight
This one's pretty simple; I'm underweight atm and so I need to gain some weight to become comfortably healthy. Eating better stuff and excersing more will also helps shift the existing weight so that I'm not so weedy; my lack of ability to carry anything heavy is quite embrassing at times. But the main thing is to put some weight on with a healthier diet.

So there we go! Quite a good list. Please comment if you see this and have thoughts, or anything. I'd be interested to hear what you have to say.